I miss the flexibility, variety and independence of my American life. I miss my diverse friends and broad minded conversations. I still feel unsure if or how to reintegrate in the Baguio scene. I’m getting turned off by the nonstop rain and lack of things to do here. Or maybe I just need more space to breathe.
I left Baguio at 15, now back at 31. The city has changed so much, but people have mostly stayed the same. Sometimes I feel like I’m 15 again, coming to terms with life and who I am all over again. Other times, I feel like I’m too old to be here. Like I’ve grown out of whatever this city has to offer.
I guess this is all part of seeing life with new eyes and more colors but I really wish there was a way I could combine both lives, and wholeheartedly be in 2 places at once.