Today was my last day of work. 8 years of the corporate life and keeping up with all its demands gone, just like that. I must say it was a big relief to leave, but also very scary that I’m taking a big step towards uncertainty. I don’t know when or where my next income will come but I still have no hesitation or doubt about my decision. All this change feels so awkward. There is so much to hang on to, so much to question, and so much to process all at once. It’s a mixed feeling of gratitude, nostalgia, sadness, anxiety, and excitement all rolled into one. I’m not even sure which to feel or express first.
For now, all I can say is as much I’ve lost a part of myself I also hang on to the foundations that guide me through the change.
C’est la vie! The best is yet to come!
I will be mentioning them a lot, so I figure I might as well introduce them to you all. Here’s a photo of my family taken the last time my family was all together last May 2014.
Meet my dad, Cyrus, (2nd from right), my mom, Victoria, (third from right), my elder brother Cyril (center), my younger brother Jayson (second from left), my sister in law Charmaine (far left) and my niece Aryanna (baby in center) and of course, myself.
We have had a lot of recent changes, but we still find comfort in our foundations with each other. Still the same goofy bunch, enjoying each day as it presents itself.
Someone once told me “If you’ve enjoyed my company 1/100th as much as I enjoyed yours, I think I did pretty well.” At first I thought it to be a rather exaggerated comment from an acquaintance I barely knew, but in retrospect, I really am grateful for the sincerity and gratitude it stems from. Sadly (and probably ironically) it was mentioned by a coworker I’ve lost touch with, but still someone I am grateful to have known and spent time with.
As time comes closer for me to move, and as time with close friends runs limited I’ve been thinking a lot about human connections, our multitude of responsibilities with each other and the nuances of the roles we play. It’s easy to forget how much of an impact we have on each other. Whether we interact as coworkers, as acquaintances, as friends, as family, it is important to remind ourselves that we matter more than we realize. Although there are always risks, heart aches, anxiety and changes through life it is always refreshing to remind ourselves (and each other) that we are blessed with people to love and sustain us through it all. After all, that is what genuinely keeps us alive.
The war you feel within – that restlessness, the undending uncertainty – is not to be dismissed, avoided, hated. That internal conflict is not dark, it is a beaming light trying to focus you, the rolling thunderous call of courage, the rays of greatness seeking to explode beyond your skin to touch once more the Spirit of Possibility. (Brendon Burchard)
Cheers to new beginnings! Welcome to my new blog on my everyday inspirations and adventures. I’m about to begin a big leap of faith – quitting my job for family and travel – and this quote seemed very apt to describe the restlessness and change stirring within me. It’s sure to be a process of learning and living (as life always is), but I am not leaving room for doubt or fear. Just hope, trust and satisfaction.